Stitched With Fear
“The quest for knowledge is hemmed with peril.” You don’t see it, not at first. Maybe not ever
But it's stitched within the fabric of every pursuit…but what happens when the threads come loose? When you can see a hole in the fabric, but it’s not enough of a rag to throw away?
You hold onto it.
With the unraveled raw hem, no backstitching to keep it in place, you realize the downsides, but don’t have it in you to let go.
I know it’s a fruitless task, but I want to unravel the fabric, despite knowing you will hang on to it.
Being in every club, every AP class, is it worth it? Advanced academics have become our radium—our light at the end of the perilous tunnel of school. It’s the wisp, leading the way to college. Crowding yourself with enough AP’s where studying doesn't stop until the next day starts, leaving food in lieu of competitions for the 10 extracurricular’s you have…when will that light finally shine? When will be be led out of here? I'm holding onto the damn rag of school, knowing that taking 6 AP’s and being in clubs isn’t half of what other’s are doing, but realizing it’s as much as I can do.
I understand the importance of taking AP’s and staying ahead to “look better” on college applications, but once I’m there, how much of that fabric of learning is going to be left?
The quest for knowledge is hemmed with peril, and stitched with fear, ironed down with hope and determination.
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NOT RELATED TO THE EMOTIONAL STUFF BUT- Fun fact, a repeating character in the Batman area of DC, Dr. Hugo Strange, was emotionally distant but extremely smart. Through his inherent psychological prowess, he nearly broke Gotham's villains, forcing them into submission before Bats got him fired. Hugo proceeded to ally with the smartest alien race, nearly destroyed earth and himself, to gain the knowledge of the universe. He ended up not being able to talk or move because the knowledge was too much for him to handle as a mere human. Essentially, he got cooked for wanting to "be him." Don't be like Hugo Strange!
This was a great way to connect our topics this week to school. Sometimes it's hard to know if it's all worth it. I enjoyed reading!
ReplyDeleteThe example you use about school, in my opinion, doesn’t reflect a quest for knowledge. I think it reflects the fear that you said was stitched in— that every one of us is scared of the future so we bully ourselves, despite the fact that many of us probably don’t want the kinds of lives we’re leading. This is a great blog that really hits home for us lowly Troy High readers (now I’m sad).
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